wow summer is flying by and its off to school again in like a week. omfg. new places, new people... and who knows which of the old will stay in touch. there are so many great ppl i met this summer who i will never see again. they touched my heart and now they are gone forever. so strange to beleive. i would see D again but it will make leaving hurt more. why start something that can't continue. why start something only to end it. O kissed me goodbye (in true European fashion). after i left i finally realized just how infatuated with him I was. even though i never did anything with him. even though i technically am unavailable. the feeling of what might been lurks deep in my stomach. the first time i have felt that cliche feeling. regret. but even D will be left behind. and now for more obscurities (for security reasons): i never realized how cruel i could be. T(R) continues his horniness and th's. worse after seeing me unclothed (karen, mary or allie will know what i mean). i will never see C again and i didn't feel sad that I didn't say goodbye. I guess I didn't like him as much as I had previously thought. funny how goodbyes make you realize your true feelings. I don't know if I will miss D... I guess I will. but I'm glad it didn't go further. maybe if I were like 20 years older. but that's not who i am now or what I want. i have turned into an illiterate (according to my mother). but am no longer fat. i can no longer use that word, probably due to R. I wonder if I will miss P. but with him I may see him next year. he won't be halfway around the globe like everyone else. Ditto with TF and TO. Luckily none of them know this site so they won't be able to read this. not that anyone reads this anyway, so it doesn't matter. i dislike the new DA setup, unlike the rest of the world apparently. I haven't been on since June. It's strange. Everyone's lives have continued on for 60 days without me. Many of those lives will continue on forever without me. I will see who I miss, and remember them. Those that I don't can be forgotten. I am better at forgetting than I give myself credit for. I think most people are. Out of sight out of mind... but there are plenty new ppl to meet.
apathy
